<< .. just trying to figure out where to go from here. >>

i heard that. i have no idea.
it feels like when i was back attending UNH-Manchester.
had no idea what i wanted to do in life or school.
in an similar limbo now. quite aimless.
no work or love life.
there is always suicide. but that seems so silly and lame. and what can you do when you're dead? who know's. which is worse, or better; the current unknown or the beyond the grave unknown?
i'm not really suicidal, just depressed and scared.
maybe i'll try some TONY ROBBINS inspirational audiotapes.

still queer,

charls