What do you do ...

When you've liked (loved) a boi for years and now he likes someone else?

When you can't think of anything but his smell and smooth skin?

He was a shy, sometimes sad fellow that you coaxed out of his shell with flattery and encouragement - and now has better posture, better self image and higher self esteem? So much in fact that he doesn't want you anymore?

What do you do when you've made mistakes, hurt him too many times and realized too late how much you can and do care for him?

And he likes someone else, and you can't squeeze him in your arms all night anymore?

If you're me - you cry, often.
And drink to excess.
And feel anxious at the idea of smiles and sex he is sharing with someone else.

It's not so much that he's sharing with someone else as that he's not sharing with me. And the fact that he likes someone else might mean he will just get furthur out of reach, maybe all the way - never to be touched again.

I want to be #1. I don't mind if there are other numbers ... but me first please.

Baby Charlie wants the kisses first.