crying all day. need therapy. need a vacation. need brad to call and tell me he loves me and wants to work it out. that's not going to happen. "we broke up for a reason" he says. but we were together for a few reasons too. i'm trying to get over him by making a list of why it's not right. that's not working. my heart hurts.

we were very good together, without trying very hard. if we were to try i believe we could be great together. but i fear he's too far over me. the timing was never quite right, maybe it never will be.

hung out with him last night, ended up sleeping in his bed. not sleeping really. waking every hour, uncomfortable. watching him, wanting to hold him, for him to be mine.

so i'm tired today. so i shouldn't take this overemotinality so seriously. still, i need help. please. anyone? fuck i'm tired of being alone.

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