Jealousy: Can't get you out of my head.

Turns out I'm the jealous type...and not too damn happy about it. I'm not even into monogamy! I've always seen jealousy as a weak emotion/reaction ... so I guess I'm not as strong as I hoped.

You see Brad had a date last night. I know, I know, we broke up already, again. And I also know that I had a date last week ... hello DOUBLE STANDARD. Last night I kept busy folding laundry and watching Sex and the City on tape. I was doing alright, wishing the best for Brad, he deserves fun, sex, hotties and happiness. Of course Sex and the City was all about love and relationships and honesty and hurting the one you love and making compromises and shit so I couldn't sleep.

Midnight: Are they still out? Did they even go out of just stay in Brad's bed?
1am: Are they dancing and making out somewhere? Giving and getting head?
6am: Are they sleeping together?
9am: Prolly still asleep.
10:33am [now]: Still sleeping or awaking with morning wood rolling around getting sloppy in the bed we had great sex in 2 nights ago?

Yuck. Help me!
No really I'm fine actually, now that I got it out of my head, whew. Maybe I'm more monogamy prone than I think.

P.S. I had a powerful dream the other night. I was being held captive, I think with a friend. We couldn't escape. The guard was big and mean and seemingly all powerful. After many futile attemps I was over being a victim. I looked the guard in the eye and said "You're made of wood and I can fly". He turned to wood and I flew away, with my friend in tow.

I think that's the best thing I've ever said in a dream.