Oh, you can get lonely
and a cat's no help with that.

Pet Shop Boys, I want a dog

I heartily disagree. Today I was leaving yoga, after having thoughts of suicide and shedding a few tears, when there on the step was Mephi, the local cat. I sat in the sun warming up and petting Mephi on my lap. Making little cat conversations and smiling. My heart and head lightened and voila! Off to start the day with smiles and lightness, gone was the despair.

Don't worry, I really wouldn't kill myself, it's such a cop out. It was just a fleeting thought as a way out of this desperation. That being my negative cash flow. Not that money is everything, but I cannot deny that it is something. Rent needs to be paid, food bought and consumed, life lived. I have enough for rent and food for a month, then it's gone. Please keep me in your thoughts, sending wishes that a lovely opportunity comes my way. I'll take you all out to dinner soon!